demi 's.

My major is English,but i am not good at English,I can't speak English fluently,furthermore,i can't write beautful essay in English.

The most important thing about learning English is accumulation,so i decided to write diary everyday,only about my everyday life,what does  i have experienced or what does i have saw……

There is going to be a bonfire party in the playground begins at 7:00 this evening,the hot weather and the hot bonfire make me feel little scared,but i feel more of exciting.

At that time,everyone will be around the bonfire,with laughing,talking,and playing games together,the company offers us foods and each department gives us a variety of spectacular performances,i think it would be a enjoyable evening.

I have noticed about how to answer the question of "How are you!" on the microblog,which one will be my answer If there is someone  ask me,i think that fair to middling or can't complain are the best choises.

Since i have decided  going to have the postgraduate exam,i landed myself in a deep torment.everyday i do the same thing such as  listening to the courseware,doing the calculating problems,time after time……some times i really want to give up,becaues i know how hard does the "mathematics" for me,but i also know how important does the "dream" for me.i am being tired of my resent work,i need some change and study is the best way.

Everytime i see other people's life on the blog or Renren,i am really appreciate and want to be one of them,i know there is no one can be success within any paid,either money or efforts.

Don't admire even envy others' life,everyone has their own life

轻易发怒的，行事愚妄。设立诡计的，被人恨恶。－－《旧•箴》14：17

不轻易发怒的，大有聪明。性情暴躁的，大显愚妄。－－《旧•箴》14：29

我该谨遵上帝的教诲，遏制愤怒，学会忍耐。

总是浮躁，静不下心来。线性代数完了还有高等数学，高等数学完了还有概率论与数理统计，数学三过后是专业课，专业课过后是政治和英语……从我下定决心的那一刻起，我就知道这是一条不容易，甚至很艰辛的路。

毕业这两年，生活总是一成不变。除了繁琐紧张的工作会不时带给我起伏和波澜外，再无其他。每天都呆在相同的地方做相同的事情，思想和行动都是空白。

偶尔想起所谓梦想，未知的未来，一切都越来越模糊，越来越遥远。就像走进一条死胡同，找不到出口，也返不回去了。

就这样，平静的生活也能滋生出恐惧，你害怕起这样的生活来，你开始踮起脚尖睁开双眼试图看看外面的世界，试图寻求改变，试图拥有另外一种不一样的生活。你意识到，光有思想什么都改变不了，思想只有在转变为行动之后，才能改变你所不喜欢的一切。然后你重新开始，却发现重新开始容易，想要继续却很难很难。只不过这一次你清楚的知道，再难也得坚持，也许这就是自己最后的机会了。

刚看了篇微博，说的是关于从2008年到2011年的每一个5月12日他们在做着什么，都是很立体很值得让人称赞的生活。我随即想想自己，居然想不起来了，因为这个我沮丧了好一阵子，难道活过了却没能留下痕迹么，那算什么过活！再仔细想想，2008年的5月12日，因为地震我过起了居无定所的生活，在学校睡过草地，搭过帐篷，还和好朋友住过板房；2009年的这个时候，我应该在挑灯夜战，为顺利毕业做着最后的准备；2010年的这个时候，工作快满一年，我正因为西安地铁项目和郑州地铁项目的同时开工忙得不亦乐乎；2011年，我真不记得了，应该也是在工作中痛并强迫自己快乐着吧！2012年的这个时候，我一定是在乐此不疲的为考研做着准备。

真的很害怕做这种回忆过去的游戏，如果时间的溜走，仅仅是时间的溜走，我什么也没能留下，那我一定是可耻的白活了。